When does the pain stop?

Hi all,

this question has been on my mind for months now and doesn’t seem to be getting any better. The memories of the past are to strong for me, they are consuming me as each day passes. I lose myself each day and I’m scared that there will be nothing left of me to go forward.

I’m stuck on a dream of how things were in my past and what I had. I had a family and there were people that cared for me. Now, I am by myself and trying hard to be positive about my present and my future.

My heart screams out for someone to love me, someone who wants to be with me. The need for that one person to come back in my life, I only want her and no one else. Sounds stupid, but my heart burns for her to be back in my life and there seems to be no hope for us. We are both still hurting and asking questions about what went wrong and these questions consume me everyday.

There are many stories of how big men don’t cry, I guess I’m no big man. I can say that not a single day goes by that the memories don’t get the better of me and then it’s like I have gone back to step 1.

I need her, I want my family back. I still dream of her everyday and its killing me slowly. I don’t know how much longer I can survive, my will is running out and I’m scared what will happen to me once I get to that stage.

Can someone please save me before it’s to late, before I do something stupid.

When will the pain stop?

I don’t believe in love anymore, but why does it still hurt?

Is there any hope for me?

What does my future hold for me?

Save me before it’s to late

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